Simple Answers Complex Questions

I remember coming back from the Philippines at 22 years of age absolutely convinced that we had way too much stuff over here and that we all needed to live lives of poverty and simplicity.

When I saw how people struggled to live on so little while we wallowed in such wealth I was appalled. When I read the Bible after that trip I saw it in a whole new light. I had some genuine revelation.

The problem came in that I began to decide what was an appropriate standard of living for others – I became the Holy Spirit to them and my standards (while I would never have admitted it) became law. I was for selling unnecessary luxuries and living with as little as possible. I wanted to be ‘radical’ in this stance, but I kept on tripping over myself.

If I sell my car and give the money away, is that better stewardship? Is it smarter to catch the bus and waste time rather than money? Should I have a bike? Isn’t a bike a luxury too if some people can’t afford bikes? What is really essential? And should a follower of Jesus be permitted any luxuries at all?… Or is that just selfish indulgence?…

Over the years I have softened in this radical stance towards possessions and I cringe every time I am confronted by someone who is decreeing that wealth is evil or that we ought to sell all of our stuff and give the money away. Truth rarely lives in extreme places – especially places that we choose to create. Its why I find extreme views on war so difficult to come to grips with. Can we really conceive of Jesus as either a complete pacifist or a militant agressor? Either view is a simplistic response to a complex question and leaves me cold.

money train free

At various times in the last few years I found myself wondering if we ought to sell up, give our money away and rent a house instead – which would mean paying nearly twice as much for accomodation as we currently do… Seems kinda false logic, but some of my more radical friends would argue that my home ownership ties me to ‘materialism’. Maybe it does, but does not owning a home make a person less covetous?

All the evidence I have come across would seem to say ‘no…’ Should I be racked with guilt if I buy something others will never be able to afford – if I drink bottled wine rather than cask wine?

Ideals are wonderful things, wihtout them we lose hope, but when they are translated into false laws that others must abide by then they become nasty tyrants.

I have many friends who have chosen paths of self sacrifice and voluntary poverty. Some of them do this with grace and an appreciation that their way is not ‘God’s way’, while others do it with an aggression, self righteousness and judgementalism that infuriates me. If the bane of evangelicalism is mediocrity and banality then the achilles heel of the social justice crew must be the self righteous attitudes that condemn others with more possessions or different political views.

I have been blessed to know some people who work for justice who exude that gracious spirit, who make me want to be like them because they have Jesus likeness about them, but I have also been assaulted by those who would call me a ‘wealthy middle class prick’ because I own (part of) a house, two cars and a boat even though the total value of cars and boat would be less that $10K! 🙂

Anyway just don’t give me simplistic answers to complex questions. I might turn a bit nasty…

Boys Day Out

Today I took Sam for a train ride into town.

He’s starting to get to the age where we can go out and have fun together, so we will be doing more and more blokey things as we go along.

As we were sitting and knocking back some coffee and cake in Forest Place a group of people broke into song behind us. Sam started jigging and twisting while everyone in the cafe looked mildy unimpressed at having their Sat urday morning disturbed.

What followed was something I haven’t seen for a while – full scale fire and brimstone preaching – ‘if you think there’s no God you’re a fool – if you think there’s no heaven you’re a fool… yada yada yada’. About 7 or 8 young guys and girls had a go at preaching in between songs.

There are two ways to look at this:

– they are doing something in regard to evangelism. They are doing more than many are doing. That is a positive thing.

– they probably turned a whole bunch of people off by their methods and further added to the stereotype of christians as nutters.

Maybe it just takes all sorts…

Cruiser Bruiser

I’ve spent a fair bit of this holiday messing around with the crankshaft on my old landcruiser, trying to get away with a cheap fix rather than the real McCoy.

Its still not fixed right and I am now on plan C. The first timing cover gasket didn’t hold so I had to pull the balancer off to fix it and in doing so discovered that the devcon repair hadn’t worked. (Glad I discovered it then).

The second time round the gasket worked but the devcon failed again. I just pulled it all apart again… It took me 15 minutes rather than the hour it took the first time!

Plan C is to weld the key in place and make it a permanent fixture. Next weekend we’ll have a crack at that. I am tempted to just weld the balancer onto the crankshaft for ever and a day… but that wouldn’t be nice to the poor person who gets it after me and had an oil seal leak…

The danger in all this is that I end up spending more money doing it badly several times than doing it right once.

However that said I have spent $300.00 and am a long way shy of the $1500/2000 price it would cost to do properly.

I hover between being totally frustrated by it and wanting to sell it at any price and becoming more determined to kick its arse. I need to remember not to do anything rash in my frustrated moments!

It’ll be good to take my eyes off it this week as I return to work. It has impacted on the holiday in the sense that it has caused stress and some financial anxiety, but at the same time I have been enjoying learning and the challenge of fixing it. We recieved a very generous gift a few days back which will really help with the cost of all the repairs that we have had to do in the last few weeks.

So… today I am up for another round with this beast. I reckon it can be beaten… Ask me what I think this time next week after we’ve tried welding it up. That will be a do or die effort and if we botch up the crankshaft the only option then will be to do it properly…

Rooster in Freo

Did you know there are roosters in Freo?… Who kick into gear at 4.00am?

I guess when you stay in the ethnic melting pot that is South Fremantle anything is possible!

It was a really good two days away – great to be able to focus just on each other and not have to worry about the kids. I think we both missed them, but not enough to put us off doing it again.

Danelle and I had some great conversations while away – some serious stuff and some silliness – just the way it ought to be.

As well as eating out and watching the cricket, I managed to finish Winton’s The Turning. It was bit hard to flow with at first, but the more I got into it the more I loved it… Ordinary people with lives of hope, regret, foolishness… people like me. 

I think I am a Tim Winton groupie…

I have just started reading The Fur by Nathan Hobby, a young West Ozzie guy who grew up in Collie. He won the TAG Hungerford prize which is quite an accomplishment so I’m looking forward to seeing where he heads with this novel. Its a pretty tough act to follow Tim Winton, poor bugger!

The Office

Last holidays we watched the entire Kath and Kim collection. This holidays its ‘The Office’, a wonderful British comedy based on excellent character development.

I love the Gareth character, Keith is a legend and David is scary because I think I know people like him… I think occasionally David is like many of us…

If you have never watched ‘The Office’ then do yourself a favour and grab the DVDs from the local store. It is a different style of comedy, but its clever and full of laughs.

Perspective

I have found it difficult this week with my car giving me trouble and potentially costing a lot of $$$. It has stressed me and concerned me that we will get behnd financially.

Yet when I open the papers I get things back in perspective.

I find myself often distubingly unaffected by tragedies, but this one has and continues to pain me. I find myself putting myself in the place of the dad who discovered his 6 month old daughter had floated away while he held her clothes, or the mum who had to choose which kid to save. I see the pic of the little 5 year old Swedish boy in the Sunday Times who had lost his entire family and I wonder… what now?

The understatement of the century comes from the Sri Lankan cleric who said ‘Its very difficult to tell people God loves them when this happens’. You think?!

I have a sense that in all of us (no matter our theo-logic) there is a sense that God shouldn’t allow stuff like this to happen. It doesn’t sit well at all that he could stand by and not intervene. I feel like that. So when people ask me (and no one has yet) I find myself unable to comment effectively on it all.

Danelle reminded me that half the reason this tragedy happened is because poverty exists – people are forced to live in sub-standard communities close to the water’s edge – in makeshift houses – subsistence living – because rich bastards like us don’t share enough of our wealth, or because we like to take advantage of their situation and take cheap holidays over ther.

I asked her if she felt we should give to the appeal in some way. Ummm?…. Actually she put it like this – "If we don’t give to these people and give big then what kind of people are we?" I have to agree – not what kind of ‘Christians’ are we, but what kind of people.

Somehow it felt like a drop in the bucket, but between them Aussies have managed to roust up $50 million. Its still a pittance probably compared to what we will spend on fast food this week or on CD’s, but its a start.

Rant over.